Hi Guys,
Wow. Haven't been on for a while. Yet again. This stop start bizo can be very frustrating, but this time round it was essential for me to take time out for my personal well-being.
Again, life threw at me it's twists and turns. I wont go into it other than to say it has been extremely emotional in an almost crippling way. When you believe someone who has let you down time and time again before and you try as you may in your heart want to trust that this time years later that they mean what they say to only fall short yet again, does end up doing your heart and head in.
I have decided enough is enough and taking back my power and will not allow any person/s to ever try to put me back down no matter their intentions. I have had it tough for a very long time now. Years in fact. But I don't dwell or wallow for too long and instead choose to take the positive path and keep on climbing to get to where I deserve to be. And I will get there hook or by crook.
Having this sudden halt has actually been a Godsend. It has given me the knowledge within that I am on the right path. That I have done my best with what I had. I chose to live in a good suburb for years in a dwelling that was admittedly damp but all I could afford to give my children a chance at a better future. For them to have better schooling at their disposal. There are areas in any city where you can live cheaply, but does also hold you back in what is available to you and stopping your potential. I wanted more for my 2 children. I have paid a heavy price personally, but the rewards have out-wayed that tenfold. I made the right choice for all of us in the end.
The reason I say this is a few odd bods from outside my family have 'judged' my situation and have actively tried to make me feel bad about it. It did get to me at first for a moment. But in the end only served to make my resolve even more firm than before and now know I am on the right path. Do not allow others to put you in a box and poopoo you. Poopoo back. For me this time I am just going to hold my ground. Time for this certain lot to know I mean business in this regard and will not be a push over easily ever again.
So here I am. Ready as.
Since my last post my son and myself have moved the glass cabinet and made the couch free to use once more.
Due to the desks in the study being set up and a blank canvas, I got the 2 cabinet drawers from the kitchen bench and moved them to the study to place the borrowed fax machine on top of them to better utilise the space. Due to this, I got stuck into the kitchen and have changed everything around and now have a free bench and can see most of the floor. All this is going round and all the time stuff filling the bins every week to the brim.
Today, I will move all the stuff around the kitchen dining table as my pal Kez is coming to help me move the computer to the study and help me reset the computer and set up the new printer maybe as well if time allows. I will be able to then move the last item/s, which is the camphor chest to the end of my bed. This is when the real work starts and that is going through all the paper work. This will feel so good. Each day I have been plugging away little by little. And slowly it is leaving this home. Love love love love LOVE this.
No matter what life throws at you and it will, of this you can be sure, the way to deal with it is just take a deep breath, regroup and restart small and before you know it there you are almost done.
Today will be a huge day. I will look like I am in an even bigger mess than before. But I know better as looks can be deceiving. I know I am getting the volume of stuff down. Such a good feeling. Have some photos, but so want to show you the before and after shots so you can see what I mean by a whirlwind mess all at the same time.
While going through this whirlwind mess, with each item moved other stuff gets moved to accommodate the item/s to be place temporarily elsewhere. Temporary could mean days or weeks and hopefully not months or years. If that is the case you really are going too slow. You then just get that sorted and you go to the next step to move the next set of item/s and this is where the whirlwind mess starts to make sense. You move those item/s along with the other stuff that has been somewhat downsized in the last move to go temporarily elsewhere, yet again, to find it's final home eventually, be it useful or in the rubbish bin very soon. I am about to move the next lot of item/s and have to move all the other item/s first to make it possible to move.
After this I will get my son to help me move the old 1960s stereo from the neighbours garage to go in the lounge and the Sewing Tredle Machine will go back into the corridor near the kitchen and laundry for the moment till the next set of chess movements which involved the Dining Room and Lounge Room much later on.
I will then concentrate daily on the boxes of stuff and placing the items in their 'new' permanent home and bag up what is to go to the Salvation Army, Rubbish Bin or to be sold or given away.
This will have to do as a mini catch up till next time.
Getting closer all the time.
No news on the job front, but in time i am sure that will change and in the meantime, I have to make use of this time.
Am organising with some dear friends to get the backyard back into ship shape order and low maintenance so I can keep it from overgrowing ever again.
I am looking forward to stating 'Job done' one day later this year.
Cheers all,
Anita
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