Well, here I go again. Been some time since I last entered anything on my blog. I originally set this blog up to help keep me motivated and not allow long periods of time inbetween purging and decluttering. Such a good plan one would have thought.
When I first started down this very long journey, the following images pretty much spell out how I felt.
Since my newfound resolve, I have come to realise that I am running out of time to finish off this decluttering and what with all these constant never ending road blocks, it is no wonder I feel I will never get to that other end. Unfortunately, the carport still needs repairs and looks like being done in the next two weeks. Hope so, as each time a storm with fierce winds comes along, it does my head in and raises my stress levels just watching anxiously with each and every 100km+ gusts.
Talk about worry. But wait I must.
Normally, when things were not going right in the past, I would view it as a complete road block and my spirits and positivity end up in the toilet. Now, however with this mind shift and attitude, I view it as just another speed bump along the way. I have come a long way.
It does not take a nanosecond to sort through all of ones massive clutter issues overnight. It takes as long as it takes and for me it has taken a very long time as I did grapple with my emotions that I had 'not' been dealing with for so very long. When you find yourself in a cycle of horrors and for you it may not be clutter, but, for example, you have a food obsession etc., that you subconsciously use to bury what may be your problematic issues.
Whatever the issue, the work to deal with and sort it out is much the same.
My particular recent speed bump for me that caused delays and any further progress was due to the simple fact that I fell ill. At first it started out as a virus that within a week turned into acute bronchitis and by the time I got to the Doctors it was fast turning into pneumonia. I could not breathe. I was gasping. But with my son still at school and fast approaching his final exams, I could not go to hospital as the Doctor advised and being that was not possible was ordered to complete bed rest. I could not do anything. I could barely move. I slept, but could not sleep. I cancelled all commitments and apart from the trip to get meds and food I rested completely. I am finally starting to feel better after 3 weeks of this having to swallow these massive horse tablets for the last 2 weeks, has finally done the trick. I have turned that corner and on the mend once more.
This is how I felt.
Yesterday, a dear friend came over to help me sort through a small book shelf in the front entrance of my home. This had been arranged just before I fell ill. I was going to cancel, but my friend assured me we would go slowly as I am still not 100%. With her help and later my sons at least 70% was in the rubbish, bagged up for an op shop and a load of Latvian books boxed up to go where they could be further utilised. My photo albums now have a home and the books are all in order. It didn't take long and I was indoors and warm. My friend was so wonderful as this was the first time she had seen my home and no judgements, just pure understanding and got what happened to get me where I am and how much I have achieved even with a heart condition.
This is how grateful I feel for all those who have helped me along the way and those still hanging in there with me. I would not have gotten so far without their collective support. In Latvian it is 'Paldies' for 'Thank You'.
My daughter and her now fiancee came over to fix the exercise bike to work once more so I can use it for my new health regime. It isn't the best, but it will do the trick for it's intended purpose. Along with my son, they turfed out some more items onto the front nature strip for the hard rubbish that is on this weekend. I was feeling somewhat frustrated that I was not able to make full use of this years hard rubbish more due to being ill. However, the fiancee now has a 'you beaut ute' that he can pick up any such bigger hard rubbish and take it away. Still a shame, but such is what happens in life. I would rather get well than the alternative.
Haven't got my act together to get the Rocker Recliner, HomeMedics back massage pad, Ottoman (and still have to find the make) and this huge dragon soft toy for sale on some sites till now due to being ill. Will get my son to take better photos in order to start selling asap. These I took earlier, but need better shots in order to put them up for sale.
1970s Leather Rocker Recliner.
Leather Ottoman from the 1960s.
Toy Dragon and thinking about selling the Vintage 'One Armed Bandit' that I purchased years ago in Long Beach Trash & Treasure in Los Angeles. Apparently, the owner whom I bought it from was an Agent for several Actors and one that he looked after was Anthony Perkins in his latter years. Wish I had the provenance stating as such. Still fully functional with US coin with bells and whistles.
For a speed hump that came my way, I feel I have dealt with it very well. With such wonderful family and friends who only want for me to enjoy my home, how can I miss. What more could I wish for.
I had to work on my mantras and self talk to keep on going. Some of the following did just that.
I am glad I have finally gotten to that place and 'shift' in my mind. It took far too long to happen, but such was my journey. I had so much thrown my way and on top of that, I kept sidetracking myself as well with other voluntary non essential commitments. I am just very glad now that I am getting there in the end. The trick now is to get the job done quickly. As my health improves and energy levels rise and a little help from those who have offered, I should be done with most of the surface stuff by the end of this year or early the next.
The following is a good guideline to follow, but I doubt I will ever throw 'everything' out. I have gotten better at culling now, but do lapse on the odd point... or two... or item... see... not so easy peasy to do... but you do get better at it... the culling that is.
Reason being is simple.
In the meantime, I keep focusing on breaking old habits.
The following is symbolic of my new health pathway.
After all, this next quote is my intended destination.
At times, I must keep on reminding myself of the following and often.
Then there will be all my Mum's letters in Latvian to go through. But that is a whole other story altogether.
Cheerio,
Anita
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