WHAT TO DO WHEN FACED WITH A BRICK WALL CALLED "YOU" IN YOUR WAY.

Hi Guys,

Been a while yet again.

As my title eludes, I have not been all that motivated in the 'decluttering' direction with this massive invisible Brick Wall.

Yes, I have been to the market twice since posting last and gotten rid of a few more items, but not near enough to be satisfying and certainly not enough to retire on.  The weather is still cold and windy and I am hoping that the summer weather kicks in sooner than later to accommodate the market days.  I am going tomorrow morning.  Hook or by crook.

Yes, I have thrown more out, but not near enough to be satisfying and certainly hasn't made a dent in the mountain I see before me.

We do have the next round of Hard Rubbish upon us.  Yes, believe it or not a whole year has gone by.  When waiting for the weekend, it feels like an eternity.  And now that it is here, it feels just like it was just yesterday.  My children and daughter's boyfriend will help me get the big ball of twine from the side of the house that we called the Triffid down into manageable bundles to be put out for collection.  Masses of the stuff.  The weeds have overgrown since, but a quick wiper sniper will take care of that as I plan to have a low maintenance area in the end.

In the meantime, life has also interfered with my progress.  First, there was the useless course that I was required to do and way too simple for me.  I was teaching others to help the Trainer out even.  I was that bored.  Just call me Chairman I would say.  Not many got that joke, but hey they are now called CEO's or Executive this and Executive that so why would a younger person get 'Chairman of the Bored (Board)'!  This course took over 3 months to complete.  The whole time being a waste of time for me as there was no learning curve or benefit to me specifically.  I felt very frustrated by this.

In the interim, I got very sick with the current virus that floored me for over 2 full weeks and then another 4 weeks of tiredness and now just an irritating cough.  But at least I can now function.

The upshot of the course I attended the Trainer was persistent in making suggestions for possible job prospects.  Basically, he put me forward to train as a Trainer and Assessment, which is a growth area and one that I could do.  Down side is I have to gain a Cert IV in Training and Assessment first.  The company that did the first one I attended offered me a position and I started the next week, which was last week.  Talk about total opposites.  This was full on information and total overload.  I can safely say I am now challenged.  This will, unfortunately, get in the way of my decluttering progress as the home work factor is massive and I will have to put head down and bum up if I want to make this work.  And I do.

So there you have it.  Small progress still being done, but feel lousy that it hasn't been more.  I am trying hard not to put myself down as that negative will also make that Brick Wall more immovable.  The whole point is to keep forging ahead and not stand still or worse still go backwards.

Now that I know I have a new career in the near future much of the paperwork and information I have on products I have worked with can now be tossed out.  This will eleviate a crap load of paperwork.

The office is taking shape slowly and one that will be a work in progress over the same period of the decluttering due to the fact that it will be used to store stuff to be taken to market and so forth.

Time and energy seem to be my enemies if I have to review the last 7 years of going through this colossal project/job.  I know I have said from where I have started I have come far.  Doesn't help from where I sit now.  It still looks like work to me and I am running out of puff and motivation, hence, my BRICK WALL.

What to do?  Somehow, I have to get that energy from somewhere to get me in a positive frame of mind to become motivated again.  None of this dragging my feet any longer.  I want this over and done with so I can enjoy the next few chapters of what is left of my time on this planet.  I want to be able to go out and enjoy myself without all this burdan and work at home just sitting like a silent horror show.  You would think that one would not get into a funk.  But one does and it happens quickly also.  It sneaks up from behind you and before you know it you are down in the dumps.  Well, I will just have to 'dedump' myself.  Wish me luck.

Just wanted to touch base and say I have not dropped off the perch or bowed out as yet.  I fully intend to complete this project and this blog to that end and then stay to help others know that this is not something to be ashamed of, but rather need help with and how best to find that right way for you.  Each persons story will be different.  The common denominator will be that we all desire the same end result.  Freedom from all the stuff.

As I have sat in my newly set up computer room I have periodically taken photos of the Magnolia Bush just out the window from early this year till now capturing the seasons from Autumn, Winter, Spring and now finally Summer.

Summer after that trim.

Autumn in full swing.

Most of the leaves are gone.

The buds are getting ready to burst with all their glory.

The first blush.

Just waiting for that right moment to open.

And open they did.

Getting ready for Summer with the first hint of greenery peeking through.

Almost ready for Summer.

Before no time the Magnolia Bush will be full of green leaves to provide me with shade.  And the cycle continues.

See I have been productive in a way.  Just not in the way I should have been.  Never said I was perfect.

Will take that last shot of the Magnolia Bush once all green.

So my next mission is to get my 'mojo' back and get on my 'proverbial' bike and get the job done much faster than before.

I want to fully enjoy my space and my life.  I feel time is running out so I better get a jiggle on.

Cheers to you all,
Anita

ps.  will try not to have such huge interludes...