Hello everyone,
Almost a year since I have done an entry. Haven't meant to do that. Just every time I would go to write, my eye would not be co-operating. Apologies for being away again for so long. Many have been checking in and for that I am happy that all kept utilising this blog to help motivate with your own 'stuff' issues in a positive ongoing way.
Also, I wanted to write when I finished under the carport. This has been achieved at long last.
Well, the carport is 99.9% done.
Just a few straggly bits to be dealt with, but is now being used for it's original intent. To park cars under it!
Have been sharing my journey on my personal Facebook page and will try and retrieve these post to share here to catch you all up with what has taken place this last year.
I have not been idle.
Long story short I was granted 2 more sessions from the organisation, which got me almost done under the carport.
Since then, my young lad and his friends helped me go through the shed and tools etc. Later, my gal pals came to help me sort said tools. These are still being sorted as I type this. This meant the shed could be used to store any of the items I will sell to try and get any last linger debts out of the way. Have to try. As Wendy said, it is best to 'sort and purge' first in full and then go onto 'selling'. Each leg of this method to be completed to only then go onto the next step. In my case, it feels like an eternity due to the sheer scale I had to deal with.
Earlier this year my daughter, son and son-in-law did put on a belated 60th birthday party, which turned into an event and all did, those that could, gave gift money to help me with certain projects. The generosity surprised me and enabled me to get many medical things done that I could not afford, along with more sessions with Wendy the expert. I had enough to pay for 8 more sessions.
Due to this since March this year, we have finished with all that was left under the carport. We even started on the difficult areas of certain kitchen cupboards.
However, a spanner has been thrown into these ongoing works and my son who had moved out only months before has to move back along with the house friend with whom he shares with, as they have another rental next year lined up, but have to move now. I will fill the gap.
One problem. I had used that room for my overflow and there was still the attic to get to.
Since then, we have emptied the attic and now in a mess for the very last time. This time most of what I am going through and sorting is my items. Culling is not difficult, but is sure is interesting opening boxes that were sealed early 2008.
It is quite something else to view your life from 10 years before. Most revealing.
Will share some photos of this last years journey in the next few 'catch-up' entries with you all and will do my best get on here to let you know more frequently how I am tracking. I have now reached the top of this mountain almost 10 years on and now slowly on my way down this mountain, taking time to enjoy the view at the various stages of this descent.
On a side note I have had a story published this last week about my plight in a magazine that is national here in Australia. I did not write it and got no recompense for it either, but I did say I wanted it to be a positive outlook on this plight that many do suffer or encounter during their lifetime. The writer did take some 'artistic' liberties of which I let slide as the article itself did display empathy and was positive, which was my one and only request. Will share this after the catch up.
I must say I cannot believe I am finally making it through this mass of stuff. I keep pinching myself to not stop as I am not there just yet. I cannot lose focus and momentum. Easy to do when nearing the end of a marathon run. I do not wish to fall down now when ever so close to the finish line.
I was hoping to be done by 28 October, which will be 10 years since my beautiful and most gorgeous Mum passed away. I know deep down she would be happy with how I have done this. Honouring all that she valued without me having to live amongst all either. With this knowledge we both can rest easy soon.
Life is finite. I plan to make the most of what is left, whatever that measure may be.
Even though life has been brutally tough going, I also have come to realise, I am incredibly fortunate to have such wonderful children and friends who have emotionally supported me through these years. All know how grateful and appreciative I am of that support.
I did take time out for a mini holiday in 19 years and can see now how essential that has been for my mental well being. Has not solved any of my issues at hand. Just coping a little better for sure.
I have had the time to reconnect even more with 'fun', 'friendship' and 'family'.
Love those 'f' words.
Next you will see any or all of my Facebook posts for that catch-up. This will assist to keep the thread of my journey to make sense. Well, at least for me.
Don't forget, if you have the issue of 'stuff', be kind to yourself and do what you can on that day. Anything out is out and celebrate that. If you know someone who is knee deep, then offer to help by taking them out for a cuppa and chat. And if it is all too hard, just take note from my journey, that plodding away does eventually get you there in the end. The tortoise did win in the end.
So slow and steady as I go.
Ciao for now
Anita in a more hopeful mood
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