Hi guys,
This week has been a tough one. Haven't done as much as I would have liked, but hey it is not every day you get 'let go' from your job! Apparently, the small company that I recently joined has lost some seriously big accounts and being the last one in and no matter how good I am - I am the first one out. Bummer. Not personal just business. I understand it, but it doesn't make it any easier.
And to add to the mix of my week - my car's water pump decides to give up the ghost. I mean really, give me a break. At least I didn't 'cook' the engine or anything else. Small mercies.
In light of events in one's life this can impact heavily on the progress one makes in the area of decluttering. Yes, once it is done you feel a whole lot better, but getting to it when you are heavy with thought is an entirely different beast and battle altogether.
Apart from the worry of finances when one is giving away and throwing out perfectly good items it then becomes just that more difficult when out of work ... you worry that you may throw out something that you might need... now don't cringe at that one... but I cannot see the point in then having to go buy it again when you do need it!!! See the dilemma!!!
It makes no sense to most people why hoarders do this, but if you look at the reason behind the stress you then might just get it. For me it has mainly been due to circumstance and lack of money. However, when the 'stuff' gets out of hand then the issue of the 'stuff' overtakes your reasoning, which then gets buried beneath the pile and usually forgotten.
What I have to do is not get down into a funk, but instead keep slogging away. Hard to do funnily enough. Organised my daughter to come today to do some more and once I do that I know I will get back on track. It is the starting that is a huge hurdle.
My daughter has been helping clear out the third bedroom that was full to the gunnels for 2 weeks now. It was during one of these recent forays my daughter, Aija found an item that caused us much laughter. It was an item that a child should only find upon their parents death! Yes, folks she found something that I got in Amsterdam. To which her curiosity knew no bounds and being that I was unable to curb my raucous laughter explained the story without scarring her for life. She has vowed to regail all at my funeral with this story! Oh dear! What have I done!
In the meantime, there are papers that have to be gone through. There are bits'n'pieces that have to be looked at. It is not as simple as just throwing it out and when there are huge amounts it can feel insurmountable. In my case what makes matters worse, more than half belonged to my Mum and GrandMum!
I have to choose which I items I care to keep and which to give away. The problem when having a daughter help is I wanted to give away these cups, but Aija pipes up and says no they are unique and should be kept! Don't worry folks she is quite happy to throw the rest out instead. Decisions like - what to keep can come quickly, but not always. At times one can falter and you start to second guess yourself. The minute you do this walk away and come back later and just go with your first instinct. Second guessing yourself just delays the 'process' tenfold and only makes you even more frustrated and annoyed with yourself. When this situation does happen go get a cuppa tea, take a deep breath and regroup and return a little later with all the positivity you can muster and attack the task with a brand new attitude.
As you can see, it is all to do with one's peace of mind, attitude and wellness. This can be acieved with head down bum up to reconnect with a more positive attitude to continue with the 'process'.
What a funny week I have had and that while I am 'letting go' I have just been 'let go'.
There is a certain symmetry to that.
Chiz all,
ANITA
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