Well, the cold can certainly put a dampener on getting anything done. Especially if it is outside one has to get things done!
I have taken other new activities on that get in the way of my task of decluttering, but one that in the end will help me with gaining much needed energy required to achieve my task of decluttering. Yes folks, I have joined a gym! Don't fall over you read it right.
I have worked under the carport to remove some rubbish and more clothes off to the brotherhood recycle bins. Along with that have also started to spruce the look of the place to get ready for the sale of the house in 2013. The first area to be tackled was the front garden bed that really needed attention as the photo below shows... it truly was a disgrace... I kept the garden together for 3 years and in this last year it just got away from me.
Here you will see the front and most of the side deweeded. Next is to replace my very sad letterbox that nearly isn't a letterbox. Ah, the jobs never finish.
So loads of new projects to tackle. Who says I overload myself? Oh, that would be ME!
It is difficult to get motivated in this Melbourne cold winter weather to get out there to get the work done. This weekend my girlfriend Sue is coming over to help me bring back what's left of my Mum's boxes for me to go through from my neighbours garage. Soon all my Mum's stuff and my gear will be finally in one spot only and not all over Melbourne.
I am hoping to get the bulk of this work done by Christmas, but looks like I will have a job that will probably slow that down. This is a good thing as with the job will come much needed funds that I can then pay others to get certain jobs completed in a more timely fashion than I ever could. At least that is my theory.
At least life is not boring and now that I have sorted out my ratbag side of the family, as in removing myself from the equation, I can now get on with the job at hand unencumbered of their angst and judgement. Ah, the freedom. Just like fresh air. You can't get enough of it.
To turn a page like that takes time to get to, but I can highly recommend it. My heart is finally getting that holiday from stress that it so deserves.
You may wonder why I mention all these things. Well, it colours how you cope and how and when you get things done and to a large extent ends up effecting your health. Decluttering is a stressful action for alot of us and to have added stressors thrust upon you just makes the situation even more worse and can compound in ways like effecting your health. In my case my heart.
It wasn't easy to get to that place and to finally let go as it involved members of my family, which I hold dear to my heart. But a few were active in making my life more stressful than necessary and the only way around that was to get out of it altogether. Now that I have cognitively done so, I have laughed, I have slept better, I have not cried as much and most of all I feel more relaxed within myself. Sure I have lost some family members, but look at what I have gained. I have gained 'me' again and the road to better health and more than likely the ability to finally get on top of all that has held me back.
To those family members I have let go I still hold within my heart, but just only the good times. If they ever one day want a relationship with me and that is 'if ever', then for me it will only be possible if they enter into it without the condemnation and judgement of the past. You can't lose horror. You have to remove yourself from the horror.
To be released in such a way has really helped in the decluttering side of things. I view things more clearly. I am able to decide without angst or intrepidation. It really is a relief.
Life goes on regardless whether we like it or not. Why not make life work for you rather than against it!
For some this journey wont take as long as it has for me. And for others even longer. But all the pain, tears and worries have been not for nought and very much worth the tricky journey.
One thing I have done is be true to myself. The other one thing I did that was a negative was dwell for too long in that negative. Never again.
Now if anyone knows anyone who is hard up and needs a working lawn mower, please let me know as I would be happy for mine to go to a well deserving home.
I am now in a place that I see the joy in the process. Now all I have to do is get the energy to hurry it all up!!! Getting old is not for the faint hearted was said to me once and now I have a glimmer of what they meant by that.
So farewell from a more settled 'me'.
Cheers
Anita who is literally shedding the baggage, but still very much tired...
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